Monday, August 24, 2009
i know what's killing me
I have been thinking all night about gun shots, stab wounds, cardiac arrest, brain damade and the worst physical and medical torture that can end my life. It has been my habit ever since I learned the word death 20 years ago. the thought of how my very life will come to an end is creeping into my subconscious like a nightmare...bloody, gory and ghastly! I am imagining precious, scarlet blood dripping on the floor like a shards of broken dreams.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
uzzap
UZZAP
I couldn’t remember when and how I got hooked with the Uzzap Service from Smart Telecommunications. All I can summon up is that one day I heard my mother barking at me like a seal because of an almost 3-hour nonstop chatting on the cellular phone. I can sit on the chair or lie in bed for 3-hours and press and press the keypads forever and I wouldn’t notice time. I would cook very fast and would ignore my favorite news just to log in at uzzap. I have neglected my consistent basketball viewing just to chat with people I haven’t even known. Whoah! I have to pay for that physical and mental abuse. I’m just a human anyway! And then came one day, when I looked in the mirror; the first thing that caught my attention is the heavyweight size pimple sneaking to pop out of my epidermis any minute. Then there are the horrible dark circles under my eyes. I would have been proud if I were a vampire in a Stephenie Meyer Twilight Saga, but dear Edward Cullen, I’m a human being. I looked dreadful like a mummy, unhealthy and sickly. I’m just 21 years old but I physically look 50. Ghastly I say, pero masyado akong mapilit at ayaw kong matinag kahit na nakikita ko na ang bad effects ng sobrang tutok sa cellphone.
I began to act like a drug addict. I get anxious if I can’t see the GPRS active setting. My eyes get red and my nose perforated if the screen says: Nurse Rachel not connected. For me that message is a nightmare! And I get easily irritated.
•How can I contact Ate Happy and send her my nose-bleeding sentiments? Oh, I do hope she forgives my nonsense babbling about Ginebra and San Miguel in the PBA which is quite irritating. Ate Hapitot nuod ka pala PBA mamaya ha. It will be a major kill for SMB and Ginebra because it will be their chance to grab the coveted championship title in the PBA Fiesta Cup Finals. Let’s keep our fingers crossed baby!
•How can I chitchat with Shontelle and Shomba about the things under the sun? I really love their duo. At gusto ko talagang tinatawag na Ziontella si Shon. Geez, but you really have a likeness with LJ Reyes’ eyes. That’s my opinion so walang kokontra. Mga mata ko naman to a. Minsan lang magparamdam sa chatroom si Shomba pero ingat ka kung ayaw mo ma-SHOMBAG! Grrr…Mabait yan sa totoo lang kaya wag po kaya mansamantala ng mabait na tao at baka sa susunod na magkita kayo, hehehe, lagot kang bata ka!
• I will always love Ate Panget and I admire her guts and backbone in raising a good son in the person of Lance. The panget name is a misnomer. She is a beautiful person na may malinis na kaluoban…naks! Not the organs and intestines.
•Yeah, Kuya Ivan will always be a good man for me, he always responded to my questions no matter how trivial or insignificant they may be. Sorry po at dinelete kita sa buddy list ko. My mind works insane sometimes. Add me please if you have forgiven me.
•And is there any way I can get updates about Cassandra’s dramatic life or how she adores music and the arts? You can really be my BFF in the chat room and maybe in real life. You should meet my real best friend. You are the exact opposite of her. Pero I have a positive feeling about you. Go out from that shell Cassie, it is high time you spread your beautiful wings and show the world that you are something! BRAVO! Weird ba ako BFF?
•How about the ever daring Hyaken who bombards me daily with patriotic jokes as if she was Tandang Silang Incarnate or was she Joan of Arc? I really love the roasted/barbeque chicken conversation we had. How I miss you stubborn-head. San ka na ba gumagala ngayon? I have a soft feeling for you. Naks ulit! Baka akalain mo tomboy ako ha! Grrrr…Of course not! I’m just really fond of you and I’m glad you trusted with with that crush of yours. I’ll keep it a secret. It be buried in my grave. Gross! Harhar!
•Whew, I would love to compete with Jethro, Makisig and Lights over text twist and see who emerged the best. Nakaka-frustrate maglaro pag walang challenge and these knights with Einstein’s brain excite me to the max! kahit na di ako makapuntos sa kanila. It was worth my time playing text twist with them. It was worth having a migraine!
• Bampira. How I silently admire you. But we are both committed and I definitely don’t go with chat-text relationships. And the admiration I have for you is that of a fan who thinks highly of her idol. I can’t help it but I really marvel at your intelligence. It warms my heart especially if you answered the text twist first. Meron pa rin konti jealousy kasi I’m a selfish player but I have 90% respect and confidence in you. Keep it up buddy. Im Alice Cullen, your vampire sister. Hahaha.
•Makisig is such a cowboy! Hindi, joke lang. May talent din ito, super Englishero katulad ni Jet, and he is superb pagdating sa mga words sa text twist na feeling ko ay out of this world. I do appreciate his kindness and palagi yan nagwe-welcome sa lahat. Whoa! I feel na responsible ang taong ito, inhenyero ba naman. At grabe siguro ang pasensiya nito. Hmm…
• Light is a positive word and so is Kuya Ilaw. Optimistic ka ba? Parang hindi e. Hahaha. I was really amazed to see his pictures. I couldn’t fathom where he keeps his brain in that carefree appearance. But hey, the sayings DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER IS TIMELESS AND UNIVERSAL. Ikaw ba nagtanong sa akin dati about Krisine Series? Are you a writer? Hala, I have a feeling na magaling kang magsulat. Sulat tayo ng nobela Kuya. Hahaha. May plot na ako dito. 20 pages pa lang nagagawa ko at ang title nito ay_ KIRIDA. Hahaha. Ang weird! I’ll send you my manuscript and please give a ruling on it.
•There’s Jerwin pa pala. Hala, I’m not familiar with him too. Maybe because hindi kami nagpapang-abot sa tuwing magcha-chat ang isa’t-isa sa chat room ng MM6. Or probably, I’m not that interesting to be noticed. Whahaha. Mr. Jerwin, hope we can be friends too.
•I love the funkiness of Ate Cindee. I honestly adore that hot hair of hers. I wish I can fashion mine like that na hindi maghihisterya ang mahal kong nanay at tatay, but I just couldn’t. I have to take care of their hearts. So, to satisfy my lust for her hair, I had it cut na lang short. You have to see my pictures. Buhaghag swiya! Hahaha. But Ate Bossing’s hair is sleek and fashionable! You rock the house girl!
•Tin is such a sister. Dark is so protective of her dati. And I want to be a big sister to her too. Whew, she is still a mystery with that Nodame nickname of hers. But I’m sure of one thing, everyone loves her. We should know each other more pa Tin. I would love to delve deeper into your personality and know who you really are.
• It will be lonely parking without Zion to pest me with welcome back admin, park. It is really solitary. I tried annoying him with a gibberish poem titled PARK. Akala ko ide-delete na niya ako sa buddy list niya, I was disappointed. Gusto ko idelete na niya ako. Harhar. Joke lang Kuya Zi. Don’t remove me, gusto ko pa ring gumawa ng mga nonsense na tula at punuin ang inbox mo. Hahaha. I’m such a bane in your existence. Hahaha.
•M is a mystery. How deep and how strange can you get? You are an intelligent person bro, remember about the Inquirer scholarship you talked •And there are the other guys of Metro Manila Six, Kuya Milk, Papanick and Wafu, Prince, Paul and Naruto who will sweep the ladies feet off the floor with their impeccable charm.
•I thought Kuya Milk was snobbish. Well, he looks like one. Forgive me Kuya Gatat! But there’s something more to him. I like his BF-GF thing with Atye Lady. Well, milkman, whose who? Wait, I wonder, Ilonggo ka po ba? Sa picture niya, mukha siyang seryoso, dikit pa dalawang kilay niya. Pero mas makapal pa rin po kilay ko sa inyo Kuya. Ajajaja!
•I’m not so akin with Papanick. He dared me to trade pictures with him but I got no pictures from him. I couldn’t figure him out; para akong nagbabasa ng tabula raza. Whahaha. Matanong nga mga girls’ ng metro!!
•Wafu? Riddle. Are you really handsome? Jajaja! I believe you. You seemed playful and happy. I wish to know you more and the legion of girls who have cried because they can’t have you. Am I right? But please, lessen that charisma you have, tulo na laway ng mga babae dito. Kawawa naman.
•Naruto. Wala ako maisip na isulat sa iyo. I’m sure Naruto fan ka. Well, I did watch the series but I’m not so familiar with the characters and the plot. Maybe you can refresh my memory. Wink!
•Kaka-add ko lang kay Prince as buddy. Marco really?! Nice guy but hindi ko alam kung ano magandang topic na pag-usapan. I’m speechless. Since you are the Prinsepe of the Metro Six, maybe you should be the prince of Prinsesa. Hehehe. I’m just teasing guys.
•Paul? Hey, I’m so sorry I’m very confused as to who you really are. Please tell me po kung sino ka talaga, ako na lang ata ang di nakaka-alam non. Ngraaa! But I have a feeling na you are Y_ _ _. Obvious ba? If you are, then I’m glad, kasi you are very friendly to me. Thanks.
•Of course, who will forget the fair ladies of the ball, Prinsesa, Yamie and Yuri who will dazzle you with their prettiness?
•Harlene is a true princess with multitude of princes who worship her like Venus. I think she is a good girl with a good heart as well. She is so friendly to everyone and very sensible. I love her colorful text…it is so refreshing to look at. Like a rainbow. And I believe she has a colorful life too. Dami niya mga fans na lalaki sa metro, why not when her angelic face can stop even the strongest of storms.
•Si Lil Cute pa pala. She is very charming and mabait. And true to her words, siya ay super cute!
•Kathleen is like a fresh air. She is pretty and pleasant. She has this ways to people na namamagnet ka.
• I don’t know Ms. Yuri so well. But I fondly recall how Kuya Ivan lovingly chats with her and she snobs him with conviction. Medyo suplada siya before (I am not sure ha), but when I chat with her these days, she is very gracious and welcoming. Sana po maging friend din kita. I just love chatting with girls and talk about boys, fashion, and chismis.
•Yamie I hope I can know you better too. You were a senior in the Metro Six and I’m sad I haven’t got the chance of knowing you. Do you love books? Magazines? Or perhaps you love movies. I’m just a text away, if you do happen to love these things, then we are bestfriends na. Hahaha.
Hehehe, pero wala siguro ako makakausap nang matino about sa Basketball dito. Huhuhu… Mga girls, please watch the PBA, exciting kaya manuod, I can’t explain the thrill I felt. Tas madami kaya hunks na PBA players! You just have to open your eyes and Jayjay Helterbrand and Jay Washington is worth your adoring screams.
•Even if I am not close to Adik, I say he’s a person of good humor despite the scary nickname. Hey there Adik, I wanna know you better too and unearth the enigma behind the name. I think the name is a camouflage to the soft personality you have which you are keeping very very very deep in your heart.
•I miss my little brother Dark, who deleted me in his buddy list for whatever justifiable reason I could not guess. Hey there little bro, I’m just a call away, I will treasure you as one of the very first person who has given me importance in the MM6 family. Until now, I can’t believe you’re only 12 years old. Smile.
•My nursing days will not be as exciting without exchanging Chikas from the beauteous Ate Lady Eve. Alam mo, naaalala ko mga kwela kong barkada sa Iloilo sa iyo. Minsan lang sila nagpaparamdam kasi busy na lahat sa paghahanap ng trabaho. Huhuhu. Ate Lady, paturo ng Italian! Hehehe, Se bellisima Lady Eve.
•Madami pa ata members, some I really do not know. I’m so sorry guys; I’m not on call 24/7. There’s Momi_a, Mera, Eyes…and a lot more. I wish we can know each other well in the course of our UZZAP journey. It will be a long way to go. Wala pa naman bayad Uzzap so the chance of becoming friends with everybody is 75 percent. Teka, member na ba si Batangmental o Zero Cool?
Sinulat ko po ito na naka dalawang bote ng Red Horse. Sa mga taong mali ang pagkakakilala ko o pagkakadescribe ko. Whahaha, awayin niyo ang ispirito ng alak na nagpahalang sa aking inosenteng kaluluwa.
Masaya po ako at nakilala ko kayo kahit na ang kapalit ay mga gamunggong tagiyawat sa buong mukha ko. Ang dami na…gusto ko tuloy umiyak at humalakhak na parang loka. Sa bawat tagiyawat ay naaalala ko ang mga taong kinaaliwan ko. I remember that in every horrible red pus, ewww! At sa mga gabing tutok ako sa kakaisip kong ano ang first letter ng text twist ni Ilaw. Ayoko maunahan ni Bampira, Makisig or M kaya. Para sa akin, sa bawat tama, itinataas ko ang bandera ng mga kababaihang taga metro sais. Nakaka-aliw din kung minsan ang magbasa ng mga ligaw-porma style ng mga lalaki, naks! Wala na bang mga bago tol. I remember my special someone sa inyo. Ibang-iba kaya yon. Torpe to the max. Imagine, nang maglunch kami, he brought me in a meatless resto. Puro tofu at mock meat pinakain sa akin. I love it when he’s closer to me, pero hanggan don lang. We never got to the point na maging formal ang lahat. I like him dahil walang katapusan ang aming pag-uusap about everything there is to talk and debate in this world. He will not give up and he will really fight for what he believes in, akala niya ba magpapatalo ako. I’m as stubborn as 3 year old. To you my dear friend, my special friend, nauna ka sa kin na maging R.N. but I’ll catch up with you. Antayin mo ko. We have an unfinished business to settle. Mark my word.
Geez, at pinagkalat ko sa buong mundo ang aking nakakalungkot na love story. Sana mabasa mo.
Anyway, back to the metro circle, masaya po ako at naging part po ako ng inyong buhay at ganun din pos a bawat isa sa inyo na naging bahagi ng makulay at medyo adventurous kong buhay. Alam ko na minsan nakakasakit ako ng damdamin ng isang tao na di ko namamalaqyan o kaya naman ay nakakalimutan kong bumati sa bawat isa sa inyo, tao lang po ako at may kahinaan din. Sa mga taong aking nasaktan, I’m honestly and sincerely sorry po, maybe you can pm me or whisper why and how I did you wrong.
Nakakaaliw talaga ang magchat sa Metro Six. Sa mga mahilig magbulong diyan, naks…ingat ingat, me naka-spy na gumagamit ng pc…Ngraaa! Ingat-ingat din sa bubulongan at baka ako mabulongan mo at maisiwalat ko ang iyong makulay na lihim. Hehehe. I am so amuse too sa mga flooders. Why, we don’t realize it, but they are actually heaven sent. Binibigyan nila tayo ng break sa nonstop na chatting. At least pag nag-flood sila, makakapag-rest na tayo at an gating mga pagal na mga mata at nananakit na mga hinlalaki! Sana pos a mga flooder, lagyan nyo po ng kulay ang inyong mga ice-breakers para naman po refreshing tingnan sa mata.
Oooops, wag po pala kayo PM ng Pm sa akin. Pag hindi po ako naka-logged in, you should be considerate enough to think na meron po akong ginagawang makabuluhang mga bagay na nangangailangan ng panahon at peaceful na pag-iisip. I knew I’ve been a pain in the neck before dahil palagi po ako nag-p-Pm ng mga tula pero I’ve learned my lessons the hard way and karma was a very effective teacher. Kay Ate Pang na naistorbo ko dati at sa lahat sa inyo, humihingi po ako ng dispensa. Di ko pa po alam dati na ako ay nakaka-istorbo po. Ate Hapi, ikaw siguro ang pinaka-biktima ko sa mga PM Pm Pm ko. Sorry talaga.
The uzzap experience was worthwhile kahit na nga mas lamang ang disadvantages nito kaysa sa mga mabubuting bagay na makukuha ko dito. That’s my mindset before I came to knew you guys. Sa text twist lang kasi ako naka-focus. But now, I’m proud to say that knowing you guys is a blessing. You make my boring days, makulay. Naks!
I’m such a flatterer, aren’t I. But I’m really telling you what’s in my heart. If naging lalaki ako siguro madami na ako napa-ibig, hehehe, mahal ko din po kayo lahat, walang exception, mahal ko kayo bilang mga bago kong kaibigan. Virtual friends you may just be, but you are as good as my real and personal friends. Vavavoom ika nga ni Tyra Banks!
Nose-bleed ba kayo? Eto tissue, punasan niyo mga dugo sa ilong niyo. Wag kayo iiyak mga repa at baka dugo rin mailuha niyo. Di kakayanin ng konsensya ko. SMILE.
LONG LIVE THE METRO MANILA SIX FAMILY.
MAY GOD BLESS EACH OF US AND GUIDE US TOWARDS THE RIGHT PATH IN LIFE. MAY HE CARESS OUR HEARTS TO BE LOVING AND CARING TO EACH OTHER AND GIVE OUR EYES LIGHT TO SEE THROUGH THE GOODNESS OF EVERYONE. MAY THAT LIGHT DIRECT US TO BECOME BETTER CITIZENS OF THE PHILIPPINES, A BETTER SON OR DAUGHTER TO OUR PARENTS, A BETTER FRIEND TO SOMEONE IN NEED AND A BETTER CHILD OF GOD.
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I couldn’t remember when and how I got hooked with the Uzzap Service from Smart Telecommunications. All I can summon up is that one day I heard my mother barking at me like a seal because of an almost 3-hour nonstop chatting on the cellular phone. I can sit on the chair or lie in bed for 3-hours and press and press the keypads forever and I wouldn’t notice time. I would cook very fast and would ignore my favorite news just to log in at uzzap. I have neglected my consistent basketball viewing just to chat with people I haven’t even known. Whoah! I have to pay for that physical and mental abuse. I’m just a human anyway! And then came one day, when I looked in the mirror; the first thing that caught my attention is the heavyweight size pimple sneaking to pop out of my epidermis any minute. Then there are the horrible dark circles under my eyes. I would have been proud if I were a vampire in a Stephenie Meyer Twilight Saga, but dear Edward Cullen, I’m a human being. I looked dreadful like a mummy, unhealthy and sickly. I’m just 21 years old but I physically look 50. Ghastly I say, pero masyado akong mapilit at ayaw kong matinag kahit na nakikita ko na ang bad effects ng sobrang tutok sa cellphone.
I began to act like a drug addict. I get anxious if I can’t see the GPRS active setting. My eyes get red and my nose perforated if the screen says: Nurse Rachel not connected. For me that message is a nightmare! And I get easily irritated.
•How can I contact Ate Happy and send her my nose-bleeding sentiments? Oh, I do hope she forgives my nonsense babbling about Ginebra and San Miguel in the PBA which is quite irritating. Ate Hapitot nuod ka pala PBA mamaya ha. It will be a major kill for SMB and Ginebra because it will be their chance to grab the coveted championship title in the PBA Fiesta Cup Finals. Let’s keep our fingers crossed baby!
•How can I chitchat with Shontelle and Shomba about the things under the sun? I really love their duo. At gusto ko talagang tinatawag na Ziontella si Shon. Geez, but you really have a likeness with LJ Reyes’ eyes. That’s my opinion so walang kokontra. Mga mata ko naman to a. Minsan lang magparamdam sa chatroom si Shomba pero ingat ka kung ayaw mo ma-SHOMBAG! Grrr…Mabait yan sa totoo lang kaya wag po kaya mansamantala ng mabait na tao at baka sa susunod na magkita kayo, hehehe, lagot kang bata ka!
• I will always love Ate Panget and I admire her guts and backbone in raising a good son in the person of Lance. The panget name is a misnomer. She is a beautiful person na may malinis na kaluoban…naks! Not the organs and intestines.
•Yeah, Kuya Ivan will always be a good man for me, he always responded to my questions no matter how trivial or insignificant they may be. Sorry po at dinelete kita sa buddy list ko. My mind works insane sometimes. Add me please if you have forgiven me.
•And is there any way I can get updates about Cassandra’s dramatic life or how she adores music and the arts? You can really be my BFF in the chat room and maybe in real life. You should meet my real best friend. You are the exact opposite of her. Pero I have a positive feeling about you. Go out from that shell Cassie, it is high time you spread your beautiful wings and show the world that you are something! BRAVO! Weird ba ako BFF?
•How about the ever daring Hyaken who bombards me daily with patriotic jokes as if she was Tandang Silang Incarnate or was she Joan of Arc? I really love the roasted/barbeque chicken conversation we had. How I miss you stubborn-head. San ka na ba gumagala ngayon? I have a soft feeling for you. Naks ulit! Baka akalain mo tomboy ako ha! Grrrr…Of course not! I’m just really fond of you and I’m glad you trusted with with that crush of yours. I’ll keep it a secret. It be buried in my grave. Gross! Harhar!
•Whew, I would love to compete with Jethro, Makisig and Lights over text twist and see who emerged the best. Nakaka-frustrate maglaro pag walang challenge and these knights with Einstein’s brain excite me to the max! kahit na di ako makapuntos sa kanila. It was worth my time playing text twist with them. It was worth having a migraine!
• Bampira. How I silently admire you. But we are both committed and I definitely don’t go with chat-text relationships. And the admiration I have for you is that of a fan who thinks highly of her idol. I can’t help it but I really marvel at your intelligence. It warms my heart especially if you answered the text twist first. Meron pa rin konti jealousy kasi I’m a selfish player but I have 90% respect and confidence in you. Keep it up buddy. Im Alice Cullen, your vampire sister. Hahaha.
•Makisig is such a cowboy! Hindi, joke lang. May talent din ito, super Englishero katulad ni Jet, and he is superb pagdating sa mga words sa text twist na feeling ko ay out of this world. I do appreciate his kindness and palagi yan nagwe-welcome sa lahat. Whoa! I feel na responsible ang taong ito, inhenyero ba naman. At grabe siguro ang pasensiya nito. Hmm…
• Light is a positive word and so is Kuya Ilaw. Optimistic ka ba? Parang hindi e. Hahaha. I was really amazed to see his pictures. I couldn’t fathom where he keeps his brain in that carefree appearance. But hey, the sayings DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER IS TIMELESS AND UNIVERSAL. Ikaw ba nagtanong sa akin dati about Krisine Series? Are you a writer? Hala, I have a feeling na magaling kang magsulat. Sulat tayo ng nobela Kuya. Hahaha. May plot na ako dito. 20 pages pa lang nagagawa ko at ang title nito ay_ KIRIDA. Hahaha. Ang weird! I’ll send you my manuscript and please give a ruling on it.
•There’s Jerwin pa pala. Hala, I’m not familiar with him too. Maybe because hindi kami nagpapang-abot sa tuwing magcha-chat ang isa’t-isa sa chat room ng MM6. Or probably, I’m not that interesting to be noticed. Whahaha. Mr. Jerwin, hope we can be friends too.
•I love the funkiness of Ate Cindee. I honestly adore that hot hair of hers. I wish I can fashion mine like that na hindi maghihisterya ang mahal kong nanay at tatay, but I just couldn’t. I have to take care of their hearts. So, to satisfy my lust for her hair, I had it cut na lang short. You have to see my pictures. Buhaghag swiya! Hahaha. But Ate Bossing’s hair is sleek and fashionable! You rock the house girl!
•Tin is such a sister. Dark is so protective of her dati. And I want to be a big sister to her too. Whew, she is still a mystery with that Nodame nickname of hers. But I’m sure of one thing, everyone loves her. We should know each other more pa Tin. I would love to delve deeper into your personality and know who you really are.
• It will be lonely parking without Zion to pest me with welcome back admin, park. It is really solitary. I tried annoying him with a gibberish poem titled PARK. Akala ko ide-delete na niya ako sa buddy list niya, I was disappointed. Gusto ko idelete na niya ako. Harhar. Joke lang Kuya Zi. Don’t remove me, gusto ko pa ring gumawa ng mga nonsense na tula at punuin ang inbox mo. Hahaha. I’m such a bane in your existence. Hahaha.
•M is a mystery. How deep and how strange can you get? You are an intelligent person bro, remember about the Inquirer scholarship you talked •And there are the other guys of Metro Manila Six, Kuya Milk, Papanick and Wafu, Prince, Paul and Naruto who will sweep the ladies feet off the floor with their impeccable charm.
•I thought Kuya Milk was snobbish. Well, he looks like one. Forgive me Kuya Gatat! But there’s something more to him. I like his BF-GF thing with Atye Lady. Well, milkman, whose who? Wait, I wonder, Ilonggo ka po ba? Sa picture niya, mukha siyang seryoso, dikit pa dalawang kilay niya. Pero mas makapal pa rin po kilay ko sa inyo Kuya. Ajajaja!
•I’m not so akin with Papanick. He dared me to trade pictures with him but I got no pictures from him. I couldn’t figure him out; para akong nagbabasa ng tabula raza. Whahaha. Matanong nga mga girls’ ng metro!!
•Wafu? Riddle. Are you really handsome? Jajaja! I believe you. You seemed playful and happy. I wish to know you more and the legion of girls who have cried because they can’t have you. Am I right? But please, lessen that charisma you have, tulo na laway ng mga babae dito. Kawawa naman.
•Naruto. Wala ako maisip na isulat sa iyo. I’m sure Naruto fan ka. Well, I did watch the series but I’m not so familiar with the characters and the plot. Maybe you can refresh my memory. Wink!
•Kaka-add ko lang kay Prince as buddy. Marco really?! Nice guy but hindi ko alam kung ano magandang topic na pag-usapan. I’m speechless. Since you are the Prinsepe of the Metro Six, maybe you should be the prince of Prinsesa. Hehehe. I’m just teasing guys.
•Paul? Hey, I’m so sorry I’m very confused as to who you really are. Please tell me po kung sino ka talaga, ako na lang ata ang di nakaka-alam non. Ngraaa! But I have a feeling na you are Y_ _ _. Obvious ba? If you are, then I’m glad, kasi you are very friendly to me. Thanks.
•Of course, who will forget the fair ladies of the ball, Prinsesa, Yamie and Yuri who will dazzle you with their prettiness?
•Harlene is a true princess with multitude of princes who worship her like Venus. I think she is a good girl with a good heart as well. She is so friendly to everyone and very sensible. I love her colorful text…it is so refreshing to look at. Like a rainbow. And I believe she has a colorful life too. Dami niya mga fans na lalaki sa metro, why not when her angelic face can stop even the strongest of storms.
•Si Lil Cute pa pala. She is very charming and mabait. And true to her words, siya ay super cute!
•Kathleen is like a fresh air. She is pretty and pleasant. She has this ways to people na namamagnet ka.
• I don’t know Ms. Yuri so well. But I fondly recall how Kuya Ivan lovingly chats with her and she snobs him with conviction. Medyo suplada siya before (I am not sure ha), but when I chat with her these days, she is very gracious and welcoming. Sana po maging friend din kita. I just love chatting with girls and talk about boys, fashion, and chismis.
•Yamie I hope I can know you better too. You were a senior in the Metro Six and I’m sad I haven’t got the chance of knowing you. Do you love books? Magazines? Or perhaps you love movies. I’m just a text away, if you do happen to love these things, then we are bestfriends na. Hahaha.
Hehehe, pero wala siguro ako makakausap nang matino about sa Basketball dito. Huhuhu… Mga girls, please watch the PBA, exciting kaya manuod, I can’t explain the thrill I felt. Tas madami kaya hunks na PBA players! You just have to open your eyes and Jayjay Helterbrand and Jay Washington is worth your adoring screams.
•Even if I am not close to Adik, I say he’s a person of good humor despite the scary nickname. Hey there Adik, I wanna know you better too and unearth the enigma behind the name. I think the name is a camouflage to the soft personality you have which you are keeping very very very deep in your heart.
•I miss my little brother Dark, who deleted me in his buddy list for whatever justifiable reason I could not guess. Hey there little bro, I’m just a call away, I will treasure you as one of the very first person who has given me importance in the MM6 family. Until now, I can’t believe you’re only 12 years old. Smile.
•My nursing days will not be as exciting without exchanging Chikas from the beauteous Ate Lady Eve. Alam mo, naaalala ko mga kwela kong barkada sa Iloilo sa iyo. Minsan lang sila nagpaparamdam kasi busy na lahat sa paghahanap ng trabaho. Huhuhu. Ate Lady, paturo ng Italian! Hehehe, Se bellisima Lady Eve.
•Madami pa ata members, some I really do not know. I’m so sorry guys; I’m not on call 24/7. There’s Momi_a, Mera, Eyes…and a lot more. I wish we can know each other well in the course of our UZZAP journey. It will be a long way to go. Wala pa naman bayad Uzzap so the chance of becoming friends with everybody is 75 percent. Teka, member na ba si Batangmental o Zero Cool?
Sinulat ko po ito na naka dalawang bote ng Red Horse. Sa mga taong mali ang pagkakakilala ko o pagkakadescribe ko. Whahaha, awayin niyo ang ispirito ng alak na nagpahalang sa aking inosenteng kaluluwa.
Masaya po ako at nakilala ko kayo kahit na ang kapalit ay mga gamunggong tagiyawat sa buong mukha ko. Ang dami na…gusto ko tuloy umiyak at humalakhak na parang loka. Sa bawat tagiyawat ay naaalala ko ang mga taong kinaaliwan ko. I remember that in every horrible red pus, ewww! At sa mga gabing tutok ako sa kakaisip kong ano ang first letter ng text twist ni Ilaw. Ayoko maunahan ni Bampira, Makisig or M kaya. Para sa akin, sa bawat tama, itinataas ko ang bandera ng mga kababaihang taga metro sais. Nakaka-aliw din kung minsan ang magbasa ng mga ligaw-porma style ng mga lalaki, naks! Wala na bang mga bago tol. I remember my special someone sa inyo. Ibang-iba kaya yon. Torpe to the max. Imagine, nang maglunch kami, he brought me in a meatless resto. Puro tofu at mock meat pinakain sa akin. I love it when he’s closer to me, pero hanggan don lang. We never got to the point na maging formal ang lahat. I like him dahil walang katapusan ang aming pag-uusap about everything there is to talk and debate in this world. He will not give up and he will really fight for what he believes in, akala niya ba magpapatalo ako. I’m as stubborn as 3 year old. To you my dear friend, my special friend, nauna ka sa kin na maging R.N. but I’ll catch up with you. Antayin mo ko. We have an unfinished business to settle. Mark my word.
Geez, at pinagkalat ko sa buong mundo ang aking nakakalungkot na love story. Sana mabasa mo.
Anyway, back to the metro circle, masaya po ako at naging part po ako ng inyong buhay at ganun din pos a bawat isa sa inyo na naging bahagi ng makulay at medyo adventurous kong buhay. Alam ko na minsan nakakasakit ako ng damdamin ng isang tao na di ko namamalaqyan o kaya naman ay nakakalimutan kong bumati sa bawat isa sa inyo, tao lang po ako at may kahinaan din. Sa mga taong aking nasaktan, I’m honestly and sincerely sorry po, maybe you can pm me or whisper why and how I did you wrong.
Nakakaaliw talaga ang magchat sa Metro Six. Sa mga mahilig magbulong diyan, naks…ingat ingat, me naka-spy na gumagamit ng pc…Ngraaa! Ingat-ingat din sa bubulongan at baka ako mabulongan mo at maisiwalat ko ang iyong makulay na lihim. Hehehe. I am so amuse too sa mga flooders. Why, we don’t realize it, but they are actually heaven sent. Binibigyan nila tayo ng break sa nonstop na chatting. At least pag nag-flood sila, makakapag-rest na tayo at an gating mga pagal na mga mata at nananakit na mga hinlalaki! Sana pos a mga flooder, lagyan nyo po ng kulay ang inyong mga ice-breakers para naman po refreshing tingnan sa mata.
Oooops, wag po pala kayo PM ng Pm sa akin. Pag hindi po ako naka-logged in, you should be considerate enough to think na meron po akong ginagawang makabuluhang mga bagay na nangangailangan ng panahon at peaceful na pag-iisip. I knew I’ve been a pain in the neck before dahil palagi po ako nag-p-Pm ng mga tula pero I’ve learned my lessons the hard way and karma was a very effective teacher. Kay Ate Pang na naistorbo ko dati at sa lahat sa inyo, humihingi po ako ng dispensa. Di ko pa po alam dati na ako ay nakaka-istorbo po. Ate Hapi, ikaw siguro ang pinaka-biktima ko sa mga PM Pm Pm ko. Sorry talaga.
The uzzap experience was worthwhile kahit na nga mas lamang ang disadvantages nito kaysa sa mga mabubuting bagay na makukuha ko dito. That’s my mindset before I came to knew you guys. Sa text twist lang kasi ako naka-focus. But now, I’m proud to say that knowing you guys is a blessing. You make my boring days, makulay. Naks!
I’m such a flatterer, aren’t I. But I’m really telling you what’s in my heart. If naging lalaki ako siguro madami na ako napa-ibig, hehehe, mahal ko din po kayo lahat, walang exception, mahal ko kayo bilang mga bago kong kaibigan. Virtual friends you may just be, but you are as good as my real and personal friends. Vavavoom ika nga ni Tyra Banks!
Nose-bleed ba kayo? Eto tissue, punasan niyo mga dugo sa ilong niyo. Wag kayo iiyak mga repa at baka dugo rin mailuha niyo. Di kakayanin ng konsensya ko. SMILE.
LONG LIVE THE METRO MANILA SIX FAMILY.
MAY GOD BLESS EACH OF US AND GUIDE US TOWARDS THE RIGHT PATH IN LIFE. MAY HE CARESS OUR HEARTS TO BE LOVING AND CARING TO EACH OTHER AND GIVE OUR EYES LIGHT TO SEE THROUGH THE GOODNESS OF EVERYONE. MAY THAT LIGHT DIRECT US TO BECOME BETTER CITIZENS OF THE PHILIPPINES, A BETTER SON OR DAUGHTER TO OUR PARENTS, A BETTER FRIEND TO SOMEONE IN NEED AND A BETTER CHILD OF GOD.
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
i am penelope
PENELOPE
I am one of the Penelope’s of this world. I am disguising behind my exterior. People see me as a lanky 21 year old girl with nothing worthy between my head. I stood 5’4” tall with untidy cumbersome short black hair. I have pimples spread over my round face like a newly cooked sunny side up egg over a heated pan. I don’t have a snout like that of a pig or a pig-headed people would have had but my nose is fashioned like that of a distant cave. My lips can turn very scarlet after a very painful bite while resisting hunger. Oh, then there’s my eyebrows. They seemed to map a quarter of my face. My eyelashes can be very attractive, lush and long like that of a raven’s wing following a tearless whimper. My eyes marvel the unhappiness in my soul. I have a fair complexion marred by an odd birthmark on my right face. I am hairy, cursed like that of a bear. I wore rags and I smell like trash.
You see, you think I’m ugly.
But have you seen enough to judge me? Take a closer look.
I am a princess. And I hate to camouflage anymore. I stand as a dignified woman with sense and substance behind my words. I plan with certainty, work with confidence and walk with conviction. I have an optimistic sketch of my future. I believe I can do what I decently desire in life with the right attitude, determination and willpower. I have a strong faith in God and I have a sane mind to accept failures and disappointments in life. I love my pimples; they at least remind me to slow down and de-stress, to repair the ruins of my past, and be a human being again. Pimples prompt me to visit the facial center and relax on the spa after a very excruciating facial treatment. But who cares about the torture on my face and the soreness thereafter? Beauty after all is coupled with pain. I envy the nose of Penelope Cruz with its perfect porcelain contour, but I am satisfied with my not so Hollywood nose that at least could smell right and protect me from the strains of Influenza A H1N1 virus (with the cilia still intact, a dose of 500mg Vitamin C, and a healthy lifestyle).
I am insatiable. A cup and a half of rice paired with adobo will not satisfy my hunger. I crave for deeper and more important things in this world. I long for an honest government that will lead its people to unity and progress. I yearn for the harmony of Filipino people to help each other up and to not push each other down. For what will destroying each other’s welfare benefit us? I wish for the faithful day that Filipinos will not slave their selves abroad to feed the empty stomachs of their brothers and sisters. For how will dollars and pounds compensate if children are left in rebellion and in loose discipline? Will a bungalow offset a drug addict son or a pregnant daughter?
I once looked at Madonna’s eyebrows with wonder. And at my eighteenth years of existence, I went to a parlor to have my eyebrows plucked the way hers was impeccably shaped. I did cried after almost half of the width of my eyebrows was pulled off. It was unbearable and I thought for a moment that I wasn’t breathing. When I looked at the mirror, (holy cow) I can’t believe it, but I looked great. So, from that day on, I embrace changes that come with the passing of time. It is hard to let go of what we are used to and to leave memorable things behind. But isn’t it amazing to discover new things and feel the thrill of that experience? Fear can cripple the adventurous cells of our body and we live in total darkness forever. We have to face the anxieties head up high and chin up. Somewhere along the road is a better opportunity revealed only to the brave and bold of hearts. So let’s work hand in hand and find out how we can be a better citizen not only to our country but to our fellow Filipino as well and to be a an active Children of God not only in churches and chapels but to the needy and homeless.
Beauty is selfless. And I am trying hard to purge the egocentric viruses in my stomach nauseating me like hell. I choose to be productive today, sweat out my excess fat and polish the irregularities of my brain. I hate to be feed and I honestly felt useless. How can I stand the shame of just sitting prettily in a couch watching the movie 27 Dresses when my father is carrying hundreds of kilos of fertizer sacks every day just to send us to decent private schools? How can I remain unfeeling when my mother overdo her usual thinking and accounting work just to give us reasonable allowances for one week? I can never put down my beloved grandmother who brought me up to be a responsible person. Even in her grave, Lola Masing never failed to give me that assurance and confidence in times of uncertainty. I owe my flair in writing to my dear Lolo Delfin who constantly fills my book shelf with Reader’s Digest, The Philippine Star and The Philippine Daily Inquirer. Maybe the good old man plans to enlist me in the US army the way he graced the USAFFE as a 2nd Senior Lieutenant or probably he just want to share his passion for reading. I will never know. But whatever it was in his shrewd thoughts, he sure produced a writer and a speaker in me. I salute you Señor Delfin for seeing through me. I will always treasure my Papa Doy for that determination and willpower he has in life. He taught me to fight as long as what I am fighting for is right. He sure knew that his granddaughter will need every ounce of grit in her chosen career in life.
I am very proud to be their granddaughter. They make me beautiful.
Rough roads may delay the course of my adventure. Bad weathers and doubts may cloud my mind. Misunderstandings amongst each may trigger confusion and then disarray. Thorns will wound me and scar me for life. These are few of the ugly things that are meant to happen to strengthen my bearing and confidence. It will make me stronger, wiser and more beautiful in life.
Like you, like them, I am one of the Penelope’s in this world. But I have chosen to reveal who I really am. I have shown you my heart and have revealed my soul for you to see through me clearly. I am beautiful you see…the most beautiful.
I am one of the Penelope’s of this world. I am disguising behind my exterior. People see me as a lanky 21 year old girl with nothing worthy between my head. I stood 5’4” tall with untidy cumbersome short black hair. I have pimples spread over my round face like a newly cooked sunny side up egg over a heated pan. I don’t have a snout like that of a pig or a pig-headed people would have had but my nose is fashioned like that of a distant cave. My lips can turn very scarlet after a very painful bite while resisting hunger. Oh, then there’s my eyebrows. They seemed to map a quarter of my face. My eyelashes can be very attractive, lush and long like that of a raven’s wing following a tearless whimper. My eyes marvel the unhappiness in my soul. I have a fair complexion marred by an odd birthmark on my right face. I am hairy, cursed like that of a bear. I wore rags and I smell like trash.
You see, you think I’m ugly.
But have you seen enough to judge me? Take a closer look.
I am a princess. And I hate to camouflage anymore. I stand as a dignified woman with sense and substance behind my words. I plan with certainty, work with confidence and walk with conviction. I have an optimistic sketch of my future. I believe I can do what I decently desire in life with the right attitude, determination and willpower. I have a strong faith in God and I have a sane mind to accept failures and disappointments in life. I love my pimples; they at least remind me to slow down and de-stress, to repair the ruins of my past, and be a human being again. Pimples prompt me to visit the facial center and relax on the spa after a very excruciating facial treatment. But who cares about the torture on my face and the soreness thereafter? Beauty after all is coupled with pain. I envy the nose of Penelope Cruz with its perfect porcelain contour, but I am satisfied with my not so Hollywood nose that at least could smell right and protect me from the strains of Influenza A H1N1 virus (with the cilia still intact, a dose of 500mg Vitamin C, and a healthy lifestyle).
I am insatiable. A cup and a half of rice paired with adobo will not satisfy my hunger. I crave for deeper and more important things in this world. I long for an honest government that will lead its people to unity and progress. I yearn for the harmony of Filipino people to help each other up and to not push each other down. For what will destroying each other’s welfare benefit us? I wish for the faithful day that Filipinos will not slave their selves abroad to feed the empty stomachs of their brothers and sisters. For how will dollars and pounds compensate if children are left in rebellion and in loose discipline? Will a bungalow offset a drug addict son or a pregnant daughter?
I once looked at Madonna’s eyebrows with wonder. And at my eighteenth years of existence, I went to a parlor to have my eyebrows plucked the way hers was impeccably shaped. I did cried after almost half of the width of my eyebrows was pulled off. It was unbearable and I thought for a moment that I wasn’t breathing. When I looked at the mirror, (holy cow) I can’t believe it, but I looked great. So, from that day on, I embrace changes that come with the passing of time. It is hard to let go of what we are used to and to leave memorable things behind. But isn’t it amazing to discover new things and feel the thrill of that experience? Fear can cripple the adventurous cells of our body and we live in total darkness forever. We have to face the anxieties head up high and chin up. Somewhere along the road is a better opportunity revealed only to the brave and bold of hearts. So let’s work hand in hand and find out how we can be a better citizen not only to our country but to our fellow Filipino as well and to be a an active Children of God not only in churches and chapels but to the needy and homeless.
Beauty is selfless. And I am trying hard to purge the egocentric viruses in my stomach nauseating me like hell. I choose to be productive today, sweat out my excess fat and polish the irregularities of my brain. I hate to be feed and I honestly felt useless. How can I stand the shame of just sitting prettily in a couch watching the movie 27 Dresses when my father is carrying hundreds of kilos of fertizer sacks every day just to send us to decent private schools? How can I remain unfeeling when my mother overdo her usual thinking and accounting work just to give us reasonable allowances for one week? I can never put down my beloved grandmother who brought me up to be a responsible person. Even in her grave, Lola Masing never failed to give me that assurance and confidence in times of uncertainty. I owe my flair in writing to my dear Lolo Delfin who constantly fills my book shelf with Reader’s Digest, The Philippine Star and The Philippine Daily Inquirer. Maybe the good old man plans to enlist me in the US army the way he graced the USAFFE as a 2nd Senior Lieutenant or probably he just want to share his passion for reading. I will never know. But whatever it was in his shrewd thoughts, he sure produced a writer and a speaker in me. I salute you Señor Delfin for seeing through me. I will always treasure my Papa Doy for that determination and willpower he has in life. He taught me to fight as long as what I am fighting for is right. He sure knew that his granddaughter will need every ounce of grit in her chosen career in life.
I am very proud to be their granddaughter. They make me beautiful.
Rough roads may delay the course of my adventure. Bad weathers and doubts may cloud my mind. Misunderstandings amongst each may trigger confusion and then disarray. Thorns will wound me and scar me for life. These are few of the ugly things that are meant to happen to strengthen my bearing and confidence. It will make me stronger, wiser and more beautiful in life.
Like you, like them, I am one of the Penelope’s in this world. But I have chosen to reveal who I really am. I have shown you my heart and have revealed my soul for you to see through me clearly. I am beautiful you see…the most beautiful.
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